I need a do over

Yup. Fail.

Didn't make it to the workout today. Didn't follow my diet. What did I do? ate two inside out pizzas and a large bowl of reese's peanutbutter crunch. What are inside out pizza. The equivalancy of two slices of pizza in pastry crust deep fried to a golden crisp. I ate two of them. Yup. Fail.


*****disclaimer***** these are my raw emotions at the time I write them. I maybe flying off he handle or honestly feel this way at the time. Please stay tuned for the full story as it unfolds. I truely don't know how this storyboard going to end.
Love always,
Chris

Fail

Ok. So I'm not follwing my diet again. I'm suppose to eat within an hour of waking up to avoid hunger. I have been up for three and craving carb because I'm starving. I have tons of cleaning to do, but I'm far from motivated. I have crew tonight at 6 pm. I wonder what the night has in store.

*****disclaimer***** these are my raw emotions at the time I write them. I maybe flying off he handle or honestly feel this way at the time. Please stay tuned for the full story as it unfolds. I truely don't know how this storyboard going to end.
Love always,
Chris

There is always tomorrow...

Yeah definitely tomorrow. Maybe Monday. But definitely sunday with my derby workout.

Cheers

Well, I think I set a new record on cheating on diets. I officially started my p90x diet at 8:30 this morning and I toasted it at 6:00 pm with 3 cinnamon buns and a diet pepsi...let the good times roll.

Nothing accomplished

I'm in the tub. Yep, I need to warm the knees ip and get dress, I'm sore from inactivity. It's amazing how fibromyalgia people feel great after working out, but feel like being hit by a truck when they get sedimentary.
I'm going to soak for a few more minutes. Then I have to get moving. Got get some kinda cleaning done.


*****disclaimer***** these are my raw emotions at the time I write them. I maybe flying off he handle or honestly feel this way at the time. Please stay tuned for the full story as it unfolds. I truely don't know how this storyboard going to end.
Love always,
Chris

Day one of p90x

So far, not so good. I'm waiting on the printer. I have printed this stuff out before, but I think it's in my husband's car. Today is day one of the p90x diet. Made chicken noodle soup for lunch. I still need to boil my eggs for breakfast. Basically, I'm doing my old dibetic diet. Low sugar, less than 30% carbs, high fiber. I lost a lot of weight on that. It's just maintaining it. Baby is sleeping right now, and needs me to feel secure. Once he is truely asleep, I need to get some cleaning downstairs done.
Damn emergency alert system test. Woke him up. Shit. This may take a while.
Ok plans today:
Start diet
Help up at derby den
Fax paperwork to hart to heart
Sign up for the YMCA
Cleaning
Workout when Hubby gets home up at the firehouse.



*****disclaimer***** these are my raw emotions at the time I write them. I maybe flying off he handle or honestly feel this way at the time. Please stay tuned for the full story as it unfolds. I truely don't know how this storyboard going to end.
Love always,
Chris

Ok I got the P90x stuff in the mail today. I already started cutting carbs and going back on my diabetic diet.

I have been feeling depressed lately. I have to go back to my doctor and hopefully they will put me on a med that doesn't make me bloat.

Looking at this stuff. I think I'm going to die. Derby practice tonight there is 2 hours of cardio.

P09x

I started the p90x lifestyle today. Which is like my diabetic diet but with portion control and exercise. I have cheated already. But this what I go through everytime I start somehing new. I'm starting an new blog about my rookie year on The South Jersey Derby Girls team. I will not be blogging on that everyday like I'm about to here. I'm planning to do a dogie houser thing to try to keep my ass on track.

Right now I'm contemplating separation from my husband. I'm dying from stress everyday so I have to lose some baggage. If he doesn't straigten out, we are going to have do our own thing for a bit so I can get my head together.
I love him with all my heart, but I'm having chest pains and headaches everyday. I can't keep torturing myself. Things are to change today.
Loves
Chris

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