You know sometimes it feels good just to sit. Here I am, I'm sitting in my car enjoying this beautiful day.
Today, there was supposed be a rapture. The sun is setting and the day is now ending. I'm watching the sunset from my car.
It is getting late. I have to make dinner, and clean the house a little bit. But right now the baby is asleep in the car. He looks comfortable. I don't want to disturb him. Plus, I'm comfortable right now.
I worked really hard today. I didn't get to the gym, but I help my dad scrub and power wash the deck.
I'm pooped. There is so much to do everyday. I envy you mom with the sparkling clean houses. The polite children. But, alas, if I had all of those thing I would not be writing this blog.
- Christian
Rantings of a boring person.
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Please Ingore the house...
I just looked at a lot of my pictures, and my house looks like we live in a barn. A lot of "projects" are going on in our house. We bought a 110 year old house and we are making it ours. Kind of an upgraded restoration. It will have a steam punk look when finished. I want the natural wood to blend in with the contemporary amenities.
That reminds me I have to call the Mortgage company in the AM. UGH. I hate dealing with them.
LO
VE
Christian
“No diet will remove all the fat from your body because the brain is entirely fat. Without a brain, you might look good, but all you could do is run for public office.” George Bernard Shaw
That reminds me I have to call the Mortgage company in the AM. UGH. I hate dealing with them.
LO
VE
Christian
“No diet will remove all the fat from your body because the brain is entirely fat. Without a brain, you might look good, but all you could do is run for public office.” George Bernard Shaw
Broken
I broke my foot.
Stress fracture of the fifth metatarsal, that snapped under pressure. No running for 4 to 6 weeks. Still staying active. Not a lot you can do without a foot. Yoga is out and so is legs.
Pinkie toe is numb and cold to my brain, but warm and pink to the eyes and touch. Update on follow up.
- Christian
Stress fracture of the fifth metatarsal, that snapped under pressure. No running for 4 to 6 weeks. Still staying active. Not a lot you can do without a foot. Yoga is out and so is legs.
Pinkie toe is numb and cold to my brain, but warm and pink to the eyes and touch. Update on follow up.
- Christian
Monday, May 2, 2011
"Friendship" runs deep in social media
Well.
I guess I get what I deserve. I posted my side of the story and now I'm less "friends" on my Facebook page.
I told you I never really felt like I was a part of the team. There was always that underlying tension. I would come to practice and would try to talk to people. They would either ignore what I said, or tell me this practice time socialize later.
Even when I would go the the hangout after practice, I would try to join the conversation and get no response.
Yes, I know someone is reading this blog right now and thinking "that two-faced bitch."
Well, let me tell you something.
I tried my damnedest to fit in with all of you, but I wasn't part of the team you all had the chance to bond in.
I fell ill.
Did I want it to happen?
No.
I can think of better ways to spend my time then hooked up to machines and medications that lower my blood pressure.
I had a tumor on my lung for crying out loud.
Imagine get this report at 35: ....There are small bilateral pleural effusions with compressive atelectasis at the lung bases. There are nonspecific groundglass opacities involving the bilateral lower lung segments which may be a basis of atelectasis; however a focal airspace in the lower left lobe may be present...there is a soft tissue prominence in the anterior mediastinum measuring up to 24 mm in anterposterior dimension which may represent thymic tissues, which is not expected in a person of this age...
What does that mean?
WELL:
What Is Thymic Cancer?
Thymic cancer is a cancer of the thymus gland or thymic tissue.
The thymus gland is in the upper part of the mediastinum (chest) behind the sternum and extending upwards into the root of the neck. It is a small organ (reaching its maximum weight of about 1 ounce during puberty) that slowly decreases in size during adulthood and is gradually replaced by fat tissue. During fetal development and childhood, the thymus produces white blood cells, called lymphocytes, that travel to lymph nodes (bean-sized collections of immune system cells) throughout the body. There they help the immune system protect the body from infections.
The thymus contains two types of cells: epithelial cells and lymphocytes. Thymic epithelial cells are the cells that line the thymus, and are the origin cells of thymoma and thymic carcinoma. If lymphocytes become malignant (cancerous), they can develop into lymphoma.
Thymic Carcinomas…Malignant Thymomas…INVASIVE THYMOMA…Thymic epithelial tumor…Thymic carcinoid tumors
Not words you want to hear.
Whatever you call them, thymic-related carcinomas and malignancies are difficult to diagnose, can be painful to treat, and fraught with confusion and fear. (From Thymic.org)
What would you do? I slept. I was so depressed, I slept.
I was looking for support. I found none.
I have 2 kids, one who was old enough to understand that if this mass is malignant, he could lose his only immediate family.
Instead I got rumors spread about me.
I was lazy, unmotivated, attention seeking, and not a team player.
Do you know how scary it is skating around, looking down at your finger tips only to see them a lovely shade of blue. To do the timed laps, and have to take 45 minutes to catch your breath.
Yes, I came back too soon.
My mind was ready to come back, but my body wasn't.
So if you was to disconnect from me on facebook, so be it. I was pissed. I'm still facing another challenge of Myasthenia Gravis. I go for those tests in the near future. (http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0001731/)
You don't believe me?
I have the report right here.
I maybe living out the last of my enjoyable years. Who knows. All I wanted to do was play.
You all have my number.
Call me sometime.
Instead of hearing it from a second source.
Because, Honestly, I have not left the house since January except for school, doctor's appointments and the DSRG.
LO
VE
Christian
“No diet will remove all the fat from your body because the brain is entirely fat. Without a brain, you might look good, but all you could do is run for public office.” George Bernard Shaw
I guess I get what I deserve. I posted my side of the story and now I'm less "friends" on my Facebook page.
I told you I never really felt like I was a part of the team. There was always that underlying tension. I would come to practice and would try to talk to people. They would either ignore what I said, or tell me this practice time socialize later.
Even when I would go the the hangout after practice, I would try to join the conversation and get no response.
Yes, I know someone is reading this blog right now and thinking "that two-faced bitch."
Well, let me tell you something.
I tried my damnedest to fit in with all of you, but I wasn't part of the team you all had the chance to bond in.
I fell ill.
Did I want it to happen?
No.
I can think of better ways to spend my time then hooked up to machines and medications that lower my blood pressure.
I had a tumor on my lung for crying out loud.
Imagine get this report at 35: ....There are small bilateral pleural effusions with compressive atelectasis at the lung bases. There are nonspecific groundglass opacities involving the bilateral lower lung segments which may be a basis of atelectasis; however a focal airspace in the lower left lobe may be present...there is a soft tissue prominence in the anterior mediastinum measuring up to 24 mm in anterposterior dimension which may represent thymic tissues, which is not expected in a person of this age...
What does that mean?
WELL:
What Is Thymic Cancer?
Thymic cancer is a cancer of the thymus gland or thymic tissue.
The thymus gland is in the upper part of the mediastinum (chest) behind the sternum and extending upwards into the root of the neck. It is a small organ (reaching its maximum weight of about 1 ounce during puberty) that slowly decreases in size during adulthood and is gradually replaced by fat tissue. During fetal development and childhood, the thymus produces white blood cells, called lymphocytes, that travel to lymph nodes (bean-sized collections of immune system cells) throughout the body. There they help the immune system protect the body from infections.
The thymus contains two types of cells: epithelial cells and lymphocytes. Thymic epithelial cells are the cells that line the thymus, and are the origin cells of thymoma and thymic carcinoma. If lymphocytes become malignant (cancerous), they can develop into lymphoma.
Thymic Carcinomas…Malignant Thymomas…INVASIVE THYMOMA…Thymic epithelial tumor…Thymic carcinoid tumors
Not words you want to hear.
Whatever you call them, thymic-related carcinomas and malignancies are difficult to diagnose, can be painful to treat, and fraught with confusion and fear. (From Thymic.org)
What would you do? I slept. I was so depressed, I slept.
I was looking for support. I found none.
I have 2 kids, one who was old enough to understand that if this mass is malignant, he could lose his only immediate family.
Instead I got rumors spread about me.
I was lazy, unmotivated, attention seeking, and not a team player.
Do you know how scary it is skating around, looking down at your finger tips only to see them a lovely shade of blue. To do the timed laps, and have to take 45 minutes to catch your breath.
Yes, I came back too soon.
My mind was ready to come back, but my body wasn't.
So if you was to disconnect from me on facebook, so be it. I was pissed. I'm still facing another challenge of Myasthenia Gravis. I go for those tests in the near future. (http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0001731/)
You don't believe me?
I have the report right here.
I maybe living out the last of my enjoyable years. Who knows. All I wanted to do was play.
You all have my number.
Call me sometime.
Instead of hearing it from a second source.
Because, Honestly, I have not left the house since January except for school, doctor's appointments and the DSRG.
LO
VE
Christian
“No diet will remove all the fat from your body because the brain is entirely fat. Without a brain, you might look good, but all you could do is run for public office.” George Bernard Shaw
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Making progress...
This is me in December of 2009
This is me in April of 2010....
This is me today....
There is a small difference, but I am making progress.
I'm switching to a gluten free diet, and try to swim as much as possible. I want this belly GONE.
LO
VE
Christian
“No diet will remove all the fat from your body because the brain is entirely fat. Without a brain, you might look good, but all you could do is run for public office.” George Bernard Shaw
This is me in April of 2010....
There is a small difference, but I am making progress.
I'm switching to a gluten free diet, and try to swim as much as possible. I want this belly GONE.
LO
VE
Christian
“No diet will remove all the fat from your body because the brain is entirely fat. Without a brain, you might look good, but all you could do is run for public office.” George Bernard Shaw
wooo I just has a heart attack.....
I thought I deleted My Lazy house wife blog, but I didn't. LOL. Stupid me.
LO
VE
Christian
“No diet will remove all the fat from your body because the brain is entirely fat. Without a brain, you might look good, but all you could do is run for public office.” George Bernard Shaw
LO
VE
Christian
“No diet will remove all the fat from your body because the brain is entirely fat. Without a brain, you might look good, but all you could do is run for public office.” George Bernard Shaw
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