Normally I would say to steer clear of these kind of shows, BUT Jennifer Hudson was on. She presents herself with grace. One thing she did say was "I let myself have bad days." Nothing can ring truer.
I am an emotional eater. I have a very big oral fixation. I think it was past down to me from my mother and grandmother. Both were smokers and nail biters. Of course, I'm a nail biter. I tried smoking, but it never settled on me. I can constantly touching my mouth. Sometimes I go as far as just feeling my tongue.
I feel that a lot of eating disorder is directly related to stress. Once my stress is managed; I stop biting my nails, My hair starts getting thicker, and I lose a ton of weight.
I saw 156 in 2009 shortly after I had the baby. Then we had a wave of bad luck ranging for a death in the family to a cancer scare. I was so depressed. I didn't move from the bed. I would; however; take care of my children, but I forsaken myself.
Today, my daily stressors include my job (I am in a high paced, stressful job), my finances (I don't see a way out), my health, and FACEBOOK. There has been a articles that I have read that suggests Facebook is highly stressful. Its true. I get on Facebook and find out all the guys from the firehouse have "disconnected" our friendship. I wonder what I DID WRONG. You know what I did. I went up the chain of command and brought to light a situation of hostile work environment, sexual harassment, and slander and liable. I could have just informed everyone with a court order, but I tried to handle everything internally. Them disconnecting from me really hurt me. I seriously called them all my brothers. Yes, I did get hurt a lot. These were people I called brother. These people I trusted with my life, and they can turn on me that easily. Well guys as of today:
I am one missed payment away from losing my house.
My husband has lost his job.
I am now working 4 jobs.
My health is getting worst with all the new stress.
I can barely make ends meet.
SO......
I just wanted a little relief from their bullshit.
So I'll let myself have a few bad days. I will try not to dwell on you petty people.
LO
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Christian
“No diet will remove all the fat from your body because the brain is entirely fat. Without a brain, you might look good, but all you could do is run for public office.” George Bernard Shaw
Rantings of a boring person.
