It's been a while.

I started a new semi-sedimentary job. More lumps have popped up. One on the back of my neck.

I will be returning to the doctors. I will be blogging the crap out of all this. I hope you will all be proactive about being healthy.

Little swimmer boy

I'm not doing this change of life alone. Chase and I signed up for swimming lessons. I even changed my schedule around so I could have this time with the baby.

If you follow me on fitness pal, you should see a lot of swimming in my timeline.

I want to be part of the state rescue dive team and confined space team.

What does that mean?

I GOT TO GET FIT!

It's not about my ego. It's not about the body image at all. I have to make sure I'm in top condition for the safety of the people I'm going to serve.

So now that I have actually paid money for the lessons. My youngest and I have an activity to keep us on track.

He did extremely well. The teacher was actually really surprised he did so well for his age. Plus, it gives me of a reason to get my butt up off this bed.

I burned almost 300 calories just treading water by him. I didn't even break a sweat.

Lol. See....I was in the water... Ah nevermind.

I was actually sore after. I will be going to the gym tomorrow. Laps. Let's do this.

Forgive me for I have sinned

I had McDonalds today, but bear with me. I'm at work. I have the baby in tow. We have back to back meetings all day long.

I need to clean up my cooler, and start packing it with all kinds of healthy things. Hopefully after this doctors. Visit I can make it over to the supermarket and get some veggies.

Ugh that reminds me I have to clean out the fridge.

I did it.

I went to the gym today and 1 hour 40 minutes later I felt great.

I even think I'm under my calorie Count.

Now I'm not really using any diet plan as of yet. I'm using myfitnespal and sparkspeople.com. I will be following their diet plans on thursday, when we get paid an I can by the foods. My email is scribbles412@yahoo.com if you want to friend me on fitness pal. Or scribbles412 on sparks people. Friend me. I need all I the help I can get.

He is killing himself.

What truly bothers me is people who say "oh if I only have more time."

Well right now my husband has high blood pressure and high cholesterol. His sleep doctor said that he would die asleep if he doesn't lose weight.

But yet every time I try to get him to go to the gym with me he make every excuse imaginable. Today was he can't today because he wants clean the house. He sat on the couch, and try to clean the house these past two weeks.

Please try and look at it my way. The house always be there. His health will not ever stay the same. He slowly killing himself with Mountain Dew and cheeseburgers. He need to see he will not be there for his children, if he keeps his bad habits.

I'm tired of dragging him along. I trying to get him involved in exercise classes. Just to hear him bitch, and complain. I want to go to the gym everyday. I'm taking the baby with me from now on at least he will have one of his parents to rely on. When I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes, I change EVERYTHING for the baby. He simply doesn't care. If he wants to sit and feel sorry for himself, do nothing-bur watch TV, and stuff himself with nastiest food. Go ahead I don't f*cking care anymore. Just don't even tell me that your back hurts. Don't tell me you didn't sleep very well. And lastly, don't tell me your hungry because I starting to make sure I'm going to live as long as I can for my kids. I'm sorry if my meals will no longer fit in your beef, potatoes and pizza catalogs.

I don't f*cking care anymore.

If you would like to tell him much or and idiot he is he's @mustangginni on Twitter.

It started innocently.

I asked the baby if he wanted to go to the YMCA.

I'm starting off slow.

At noon, I plan on doing my water exercise class. A nice warm up before I walk or get on the elliptical machine at a slow pace.

I am so sore.

It I getting harder and harder to get out of bed. Some thing is wrong. Once we start working again; I will be going back to the doctor to supervise my weight lose. I've tried to do it on my own and I just ain't cutting it.

Maybe we can figure out why I only eat 1500 calories a day, but still have high sugars; plus, more and more weight just adding on to my small frame.

By golly I think I found the problem.

I was doing really good today. I swear I was. Then I faced some major stress.

I went for comfort food. I got a small DQ blizzard. I was under my calorie intake, but it still wasn't the healthy choice I hoped to start my year off.

As I told my husband, I was found myself grabbing all kinds of snack foods an stuffing them in my mouth. I once smoked, and at one time I sucked my thumb. I have an oral fixation. It wasn't until I sat down to add my blizzard to my fitness pal, when I realized how much I actually veered off of the promise I made myself.

I hope I can fix this.