Survival of the fittest

A lot of stuff been happening in my house.

I was doing really well. Dug ourselves out of debt. We were finally able to save a little bit. We went to convention. Hell, I even hit the 180's with my diet and exercise.

Today, I finally got assistance with healthcare. Now, I'm worried about the mortgage.

My husband after six years has lost his job. I guess I put too much faith that he would be a provider. It's been four weeks since he lost it.

I have been working a lot. I'm doing 56 hours a week with one job, and 36 with the other. I was hospitalized for exhaustion last Sunday. My body finally failed me. It started with shin splints; Then leg cramps; and it ended in a mild heart attack.

I am very tired.

I can't sleep.

My life is a train wreck.

We are waiting to see if my husband could possibly be eligible for unemployment. He has applied a few places, but nothing has happened, yet. I have another interview tomorrow. I'm hoping for this one. It could save our house, and quite possibly our marriage.

I love my husband, but I have to protect my boys. He needs to get more proactive. I cannot have him acting like he's on vacation.

The day he came home told me he lost his job. I got up; updated my resume; and got hired at three different places.

He, on the other hand, went to careerbuilder and put in a couple of resumes. He just not worried where we will be in the upcoming months.

Me?

I'm planning for survival.