So ok. I have not been exersicing. I have gained back most of my weight. I don't feel like doing anything. My mood is in the shiyter. I can't sleep. I'm still having headaches on a daily basis. Baby is crying again. Shit.
Rantings of a boring person.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Monday, November 9, 2009
Right after I wrote progress I got this email :
Subject: Fwd: Fw: Passing the Purple Hat to You
Passing the Purple Hat to You
IN honor of women's history month and in memory of Erma Bombeck who lost her fight with cancer. Pass this on to five women that you want watched over. If you don't know five women to pass this on to, one will do just fine.
IF I HAD MY LIFE TO LIVE OVER - by Erma Bombeck
(written after she found out she was dying from cancer).
I would have gone to bed when I was sick instead of pretending the earth would go into a holding pattern if I weren't there for the day.
I would have burned the pink candle sculpted like a rose before it melted in storage.
I would have talked less and listened more.
I would have invited friends over to dinner even if the carpet was stained, or the sofa faded..
I would have eaten the popcorn in the 'good' living room and worried much less about the dirt when someone wanted to light a fire in the fireplace
I would have taken the time to listen to my grandfather ramble about his youth..
I would have shared more of the responsibility carried by my husband.
I would never have insisted the car windows be rolled up on a summer day because my hair had just been teased and sprayed.
I would have sat on the lawn with my grass stains.
I would have cried and laughed less while watching television and more while watching life.
I would never have bought anything just because it was practical, wouldn't show soil, or was guaranteed to last a lifetime.
Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I'd have cherished every moment and realized that the wonderment growing inside me was the only chance in life to assist God in a miracle.
When my kids kissed me impetuously, I would never have said, 'Later. Now go get washed up for dinner.' There would have been more 'I love you's' More 'I'm sorry's.'
But mostly, given another shot at life, I would seize every minute..look at it and really see it .. live it and never give it back. STOP SWEATING THE SMALL STUFF!!!
Don't worry about who doesn't like you, who has more, or who's doing what
Instead, let's cherish the relationships we have with those who do love us.
If you don't mind, send this on to all the women you are grateful to have as friends..
Maybe we should all grab that purple hat earlier.
Please send this to five phenomenal women today in celebration of Beautiful Women's Month.
If you do, something good will happen--you will boost another woman's self esteem.
2 KEEP IT LIT!
IN MEMORY .. . . . ..
These are the colors that represent the different cancers.
All you are asked to do is keep this circulating, even if it's to one more person, in memory of anyone you know who has been struck by cancer..
A Candle Loses Nothing by Lighting Another Candle.
Please Keep The Candle Going!
This one I do ask that you please send on.
By sending this on, you will think and realize how you've been blessed, up until now.
This is a disease which affects all families.. no one is exempt
Windows 7: Simplify your PC. Learn more.
Yep. This is why I do it.
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Subject: Fwd: Fw: Passing the Purple Hat to You
Passing the Purple Hat to You
IN honor of women's history month and in memory of Erma Bombeck who lost her fight with cancer. Pass this on to five women that you want watched over. If you don't know five women to pass this on to, one will do just fine.
IF I HAD MY LIFE TO LIVE OVER - by Erma Bombeck
(written after she found out she was dying from cancer).
I would have gone to bed when I was sick instead of pretending the earth would go into a holding pattern if I weren't there for the day.
I would have burned the pink candle sculpted like a rose before it melted in storage.
I would have talked less and listened more.
I would have invited friends over to dinner even if the carpet was stained, or the sofa faded..
I would have eaten the popcorn in the 'good' living room and worried much less about the dirt when someone wanted to light a fire in the fireplace
I would have taken the time to listen to my grandfather ramble about his youth..
I would have shared more of the responsibility carried by my husband.
I would never have insisted the car windows be rolled up on a summer day because my hair had just been teased and sprayed.
I would have sat on the lawn with my grass stains.
I would have cried and laughed less while watching television and more while watching life.
I would never have bought anything just because it was practical, wouldn't show soil, or was guaranteed to last a lifetime.
Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I'd have cherished every moment and realized that the wonderment growing inside me was the only chance in life to assist God in a miracle.
When my kids kissed me impetuously, I would never have said, 'Later. Now go get washed up for dinner.' There would have been more 'I love you's' More 'I'm sorry's.'
But mostly, given another shot at life, I would seize every minute..look at it and really see it .. live it and never give it back. STOP SWEATING THE SMALL STUFF!!!
Don't worry about who doesn't like you, who has more, or who's doing what
Instead, let's cherish the relationships we have with those who do love us.
If you don't mind, send this on to all the women you are grateful to have as friends..
Maybe we should all grab that purple hat earlier.
Please send this to five phenomenal women today in celebration of Beautiful Women's Month.
If you do, something good will happen--you will boost another woman's self esteem.
2 KEEP IT LIT!
IN MEMORY .. . . . ..
These are the colors that represent the different cancers.
All you are asked to do is keep this circulating, even if it's to one more person, in memory of anyone you know who has been struck by cancer..
A Candle Loses Nothing by Lighting Another Candle.
Please Keep The Candle Going!
This one I do ask that you please send on.
By sending this on, you will think and realize how you've been blessed, up until now.
This is a disease which affects all families.. no one is exempt
Windows 7: Simplify your PC. Learn more.
Yep. This is why I do it.
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Progress
Even through I am gaining wieght I am losing inches. Yesterday, we did endurance drills for two hours. Today was blocks. They put me up againist an ex hockey player. Let me tell you he had thirty (maybe more)pounds on me and I couldn't put him on his ass. I tried. I really did. I knocked the wind out of myself. I said one word that nobody heard. Not help. No, I'm a roller derby queen. I said, fuck. Mouth moved, but there was no air to make a sound. I skated a pace line for about twenty minutes and then beat the crap out of myself. I have a bruise starting on my upper back and butt already.
My chest hurt from the fall. My head hurts from the headaches. My nose Is stuffed full of snoogers.
Why do I do it? Because I still can.
One thing I forgot to mention. My back is messed up. I have two bulging disk, and one is desinagrating. I have nerve damage in my right shoulder. I am surviving fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome. I have had a couple of growths on my thyroid and woman parts. Benine thank goodness. I don't dwell on any of that. Oh yeah. My hip dislocates.
Most of these injuries are complements of a recent car accident.
Oh well. I'm doing it now. I just want to get my kicks before I have to "retire" my trill seeking ways. It's going to kill me, when the doctors finally tell me no more.
I am already dreading the day. That is why I do it. Because, I can say I did that.
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My chest hurt from the fall. My head hurts from the headaches. My nose Is stuffed full of snoogers.
Why do I do it? Because I still can.
One thing I forgot to mention. My back is messed up. I have two bulging disk, and one is desinagrating. I have nerve damage in my right shoulder. I am surviving fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome. I have had a couple of growths on my thyroid and woman parts. Benine thank goodness. I don't dwell on any of that. Oh yeah. My hip dislocates.
Most of these injuries are complements of a recent car accident.
Oh well. I'm doing it now. I just want to get my kicks before I have to "retire" my trill seeking ways. It's going to kill me, when the doctors finally tell me no more.
I am already dreading the day. That is why I do it. Because, I can say I did that.
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Saturday, November 7, 2009
Still on track
I'm on my gift right now. So I don't really want to do anything but sit in the tub. Between the housework and roller derby, I'm exhusted. My abs are burning everyday. Somedays I feel like I can't sit up, and have to roll off the bed.
It took a week to recover from ladder training. I have vehicle rescue the next two weekends. My upper body will be just hanging from my body. I hope I can bounce back faster.
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Monday, October 19, 2009
Stalled
I can't believe I have stalled already. I have no babysitter to go to practice. I can't have my son watch him because he doesn't have the patience with him. I have not been over to the firehouse gym. I have been cleaning the house. That has got to count for something. All that scrubbing, lifting and carrying makes my muscles burn and my back sore.
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Sunday, October 11, 2009
Opps I missed it again
I missed practice again, but not because I wanted to or because of laziness. I didn't know when it was. I still don't know where it would have been. I texted my captain yesterday and she said she was going to tell me the details and never did.
It's not like I could have made it there anyways I have no gas in the van. We are broke. Absolutely no money until payday.
I hope I get a call from the transport company this week. I need to work. We have no money to do anything. We make sure we eat and stay warm.
The house is shambles. There is piss and shit all over the dining room; because the puppies were not being watched after they were let outside. My oldest dog peed on the bassinet. I have piles of laundry.
The baby is finally asleep. I can go to work on the house. I guess I'll go to the gym after Sal gets home.
Oh yeah. Another thing, I have been working out and hardly eating anything how the hell did I gain eight pounds?
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It's not like I could have made it there anyways I have no gas in the van. We are broke. Absolutely no money until payday.
I hope I get a call from the transport company this week. I need to work. We have no money to do anything. We make sure we eat and stay warm.
The house is shambles. There is piss and shit all over the dining room; because the puppies were not being watched after they were let outside. My oldest dog peed on the bassinet. I have piles of laundry.
The baby is finally asleep. I can go to work on the house. I guess I'll go to the gym after Sal gets home.
Oh yeah. Another thing, I have been working out and hardly eating anything how the hell did I gain eight pounds?
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Friday, October 9, 2009
Day of rest
I have been exercising a lot lately.
I'm taking today off from the gym because I'm tired.
Monday I went back to derby. I was sore afterwards but i was only skating an hour.
Tuesday I went to the park with the puppies and ran (literally ran around the park) with them. It was cute they were no sure of the other dogs and stuck close to Sal and I. I had to run and have the dogs chase me to get them to run. I also had to throw the ball to get them to socialize.
Wednesday I did 30 minutes on the elipical machine and worked on my abs and back. Then went home and clean the kitchen. I scrubbed my sink and every dish in it. I missed derby practice because of my CEU class for my EMT.
I had a flare that night from my fibromyalgia. I have been on my pain killers since.
Thursday I did too much. I went to the firehouse gym again and well as other things.
At the fire house I did 20 minute worth of sprints on the elipical machine. Three sets of eight on the ab, back and shoulder machines with increased weight. Then I was off to a strength test for a job I'm applying for.
At the interview, I was tested for mental alertness, Then strength test. I had to use a manual strecther and stair chair to carry a 250 lb man. The stretcher wasn't too bad, but most of the equiptment was broken. Release latch on the top of the stretcher was broken and so was the latch for the stretcher to lock it into the ambulance. The stair chair was nothing I have every seen before. To Describe it... It was an aluminmum lawnchair with attached sticks. There were no tracks. No assistance. I almost dropped the "patient" twice. My hand couldn't hold on. I kept resting the posts on the top of my legs and now I have pretty bruises.
After the testing, I ran home and picked up my sons and husband.
We then went up to the Chestnut Run Plaza to load the Trucks for my oldest sons robotics competion.
I returned home to cook dinner, feed the dogs, and clean the kitchen.
I think I may change the name of this blog.
I'm taking today off from the gym because I'm tired.
Monday I went back to derby. I was sore afterwards but i was only skating an hour.
Tuesday I went to the park with the puppies and ran (literally ran around the park) with them. It was cute they were no sure of the other dogs and stuck close to Sal and I. I had to run and have the dogs chase me to get them to run. I also had to throw the ball to get them to socialize.
Wednesday I did 30 minutes on the elipical machine and worked on my abs and back. Then went home and clean the kitchen. I scrubbed my sink and every dish in it. I missed derby practice because of my CEU class for my EMT.
I had a flare that night from my fibromyalgia. I have been on my pain killers since.
Thursday I did too much. I went to the firehouse gym again and well as other things.
At the fire house I did 20 minute worth of sprints on the elipical machine. Three sets of eight on the ab, back and shoulder machines with increased weight. Then I was off to a strength test for a job I'm applying for.
At the interview, I was tested for mental alertness, Then strength test. I had to use a manual strecther and stair chair to carry a 250 lb man. The stretcher wasn't too bad, but most of the equiptment was broken. Release latch on the top of the stretcher was broken and so was the latch for the stretcher to lock it into the ambulance. The stair chair was nothing I have every seen before. To Describe it... It was an aluminmum lawnchair with attached sticks. There were no tracks. No assistance. I almost dropped the "patient" twice. My hand couldn't hold on. I kept resting the posts on the top of my legs and now I have pretty bruises.
After the testing, I ran home and picked up my sons and husband.
We then went up to the Chestnut Run Plaza to load the Trucks for my oldest sons robotics competion.
I returned home to cook dinner, feed the dogs, and clean the kitchen.
I think I may change the name of this blog.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Exercise at last!
I actually exercised today! I walked with the baby carrier for three hours. We went to coast day. We did a treasure hunt and had to walk around campus to find clues. I know walking with an extra ten pounds on the front of me has to count for something because me back, butt and calves are killing me.
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Not so lazy days
I have been on a weird schedule lately. Been going to bed at eleven with the baby, waking at 2 am and feeding him til 3 am, then getting up at 5 am or 6 am. Sal has been taking the baby in the morning and I go back to bed until 9 or 10am. I'm wondering how healthy this is for me? I feel rested, but underneath it all I'm drained. I'm still losing weight. Which is a feat in itself.
This sleep schedule starts my day late, and I get depressed that I can't go to places before kody gets home from school. Then I have to make dinner and clena the house. I'm buried in a to do list. I guess my workout will have to wait until my schedule is straightened out.
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This sleep schedule starts my day late, and I get depressed that I can't go to places before kody gets home from school. Then I have to make dinner and clena the house. I'm buried in a to do list. I guess my workout will have to wait until my schedule is straightened out.
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Wednesday, September 30, 2009
LIL ABOUT ME
I'm Lazy.
There I admit it.
I have been "in shape" all of my life. That was until 1998. I went thorugh a terrible depression then. Between the medications, drinking and the comfort eating. I grew to a whopping 245lbs. There are no picture of me back then. It is a time I would like to forget. Last year, I was 212. I have started diets many time throughout my life, but like most things never completed them. With recently having the baby, I weigh in at 156. Not too bad. I firgured that my diabetic diet helped with the extra sugars and I ate hardly any carbs. I am reseting my sparks people diet stage as of today. I will do my measurement later on today.
If you want to follow my progress go here: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage.asp?id=scribbles412
If you would like to join me:
There I admit it.
I have been "in shape" all of my life. That was until 1998. I went thorugh a terrible depression then. Between the medications, drinking and the comfort eating. I grew to a whopping 245lbs. There are no picture of me back then. It is a time I would like to forget. Last year, I was 212. I have started diets many time throughout my life, but like most things never completed them. With recently having the baby, I weigh in at 156. Not too bad. I firgured that my diabetic diet helped with the extra sugars and I ate hardly any carbs. I am reseting my sparks people diet stage as of today. I will do my measurement later on today.
If you want to follow my progress go here: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage.asp?id=scribbles412
If you would like to join me:
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Exericising
The only thing I have been able to exercise is my mind. Chest pains have still been bad. I have to make a doctors appoint to follow up with the ER visit I had two weeks ago. I plan on starting slow. I want to walk the dogs and the baby for a total of an hour DAILY. I want to hit the gym at the firehouse every other day. I go back to derby on the fifth of October. I know it's not going to be easy and result are not going to be immediate, but I have to get started. It will definately tomorrow.
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Monday, September 28, 2009
Bump in the road
I'm having sever chest pains. All I have done today was drive. I have to get this checked out. It hurts to breathe. I have to take a deep breath before I can speak. Pain is radiating to my back. I don't feel like going through all the test again. The hospital said last time this happen my heart was enlarged and I had dead pockets in my lungs. I never followed up. Mostly because I didn't know what my next step was. I am 34 yeArs old. Not normally
someone who goes to someone for advice on their heart.
I'm so tired but I can't sleep. What to do. What to do?
Oh yeah my arms fall asleep, whenever they are bent. My headaches are getting worst. Need to lay down. Will break out the treadmill tonight because of the rain. No walk tonight. Maybe after my nap I'll hit the gym at the firehouse.
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someone who goes to someone for advice on their heart.
I'm so tired but I can't sleep. What to do. What to do?
Oh yeah my arms fall asleep, whenever they are bent. My headaches are getting worst. Need to lay down. Will break out the treadmill tonight because of the rain. No walk tonight. Maybe after my nap I'll hit the gym at the firehouse.
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Not so great start
Almost skipped lunch along with breakfast. At pizza hut right now eating at the salad bar. Well, at least I followed my food suggestions for lunch.
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Getting started.
I know this maybe a shot in the dark and completely impossible, but I'm going to get in shape. I'm going to follow the Sparkspeople.com diet plans, and hopefully find myself in a hot little body by next summer. I'm going back to roller derby in a few weeks, and of course volunteering with the fire company. I'm hoping to find time everyday to blogg what I have done throughout the day. I'm also going to complain, cry, bitch and moan...would I have it any different.
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