This argument has been going on for two almost three years now.
The man I married is gone. When we were dating he showered me with love and attention. He made sure I was content.
I don't know where that man when. I have a self centered, procrastinating man now. What finally broke my back was last night.
My gifts are in the mail because he was too self absorber in HIS schedule to get them earlier.
He keeps saying he didn't have the time or money. He had a week off every month. I took him to stores and pointed out the stuff I wanted. There was an excuse EVERY TIME as to why he couldn't stay in the store. He ignored everything I said.
The only thing I didn't do is grab him by the ear and shove it in his face.
Recently I received a settlement. I have spent a total of $75 on myself with that money. It almost all but gone.
I wanna pout today. Earlier this month. I helped to save my neighbors from a fire. I sacrificed my health, time and job for our child. I sacrificed roller derby for a medical issue. I sacrificed firefighting for cancer.
The one day I was looking for my feeling to be validated I got jack shit. Like my birthday, Mother's day and Valentine's before it.
When will I ever learn?
- Christian
Rantings of a boring person.
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