I know it's not fair that I have "checked out" for a bit. I hate leaving without explanation. A lot has happened to me in the past few months. It started out with a torn knee. Now I have not been to an actual doctors in 5 years.
Yes, I tore my knee in october 2008, but I just got X-rays and they gave me injections and PT.
My last Physical with blood work was in 2000, when I was Diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. There have been other stints in the ER for various thing and quick doctors visits, but nothing a tylenol and a shot couldn't cure.
In April when I tore my knee again, I became I little more aware of me feeling "sick." I started to see a group of doctor to try to get me back to my "old" self.
First, I thought I was depressed. I wasn't healing as fast as I normally did. I began not to care anymore what happened to the people in my life and the things I cared for. It's wasn't depression. I was more frustrated, then depressed.
Next I saw my PCP, I suggested to do the Lupus blood work again this time I got 7 or the 11 markers. I never followed up with it. so I don't know if I am actually diagnosed with Lupus or not.
Then I started to black out and lose time. I got more blood work done. Turns out I'm pre-diabetic with hypoglycemic trend.
Then just as I was starting to feel better. My van was struck by a drunk driver one block from my house. It the accident wasn't bad enough, the driver tried to hit me with his car while fleeing the scene. I re-injuried myself from my neck to my knees. I got an MRI and it showed I have stenosis of the spine with the beginnings of cord compression. I have 3 bulging disks. I was back in PT again in June. I worked really hard at rehabbing myself. I want so badly to go back to derby. But I was always tired. I got some good news the stenosis wasn't as bad as they thought. My cholesterol was high, but my A1C came back as a 6.5%.
I started to go back to my old ways easing into school and work, but I was so tired and the pain kept getting worst. I started to see a pain management doc. He stuck me on all kinds of pain meds. I continued on but the combination of pain medications and the fatigue got the best of me and I dropped out of college in September with the plan to return in the Spring. I started working Prime time at my job and every night I got home I was wiped out. I couldn't move and I was having sever abdominal pains.
I found a paper about a week ago that stated on 9/7/09 a mass was found between my thymus and my lung. this mass measured at time 24 mm and it was unusual for a person of my age to have it. It also said I have Pleural Effusions and Atelectsis of my lungs.. basically I have fluid in my lungs and they are not fully expanding.
See, I wondered why I couldn't do pace line.
I just had my kidney functions test and the CAT scan is Monday, then its a waiting game. This Important piece of paper was stuffed in an old book bag of mine where I kept my knitting. If I wouldn't have picked my knitting back up I don't know how much longer I would have taken to see a doctor. It might have been too late. You can call me a liar and such. I don't care anymore. I'm too sick to be petty a play games. Just remember My door is always open for my friends. I will try my damnest to make it to every event, but I disappear its not because I want to or a flaked out. Text me. I maybe over sleeping on my pain meds or a doctor visit has run over, but mostly it may be that I totally WIPED out. I could use your support.
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Christian
“No diet will remove all the fat from your body because the brain is entirely fat. Without a brain, you might look good, but all you could do is run for public office.” George Bernard Shaw
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