So sorry

I just realized I have not updated this thing in a couple of days.

So sorry.

Not much has changed. I'm still in the dark as to how big the tumor is. Damn holiday. I couldn't even enjoy it. I'm going through songs I want for my funeral and what I want my tombstone to read.

I am not afraid of dying. Not at all. I've made my peace. What I worry able is my husband and my children. Since I have gotten sick, my house is a total pig pen. When I first bought this house in 2008 you could eat off the floor. Now I can't do laundry without taking several breaks.

Anyone that follows me. Have you ever wondered why most of my pictures are from my bed with the big pile of laundry?

My husband is starting to be more independent. He's been making dinner and doing laundry. I'm just hoping I can get a wind of energy ti vacuum. This poor house needs it.

Sal works nights this weekend. I actually miss him when he is at work.

My nails shop is open tomorrow and the owner (a good friend of mine) has invited me in for services.

See this brilliant woman named Julie, @kneatfreak on twitter, has all these really great ideas and she started this #peditweetup thing.

I suggested Tony's shop because 1) I know he is uberclean, 2) he's reasonable on prices, and 3) he a small business that was feeling the pinch of the recession.

His pedicures are given in massage chair. They wash, pumice, trim and massage your feet, ankles and calves. Then they lotion and use this "magic fingers" massager to circulate the blood. They top is all off with hot towels. Spa like treatment. Just lately all my money has been going to co pays.

I go and sit at the shop a couple of time when Sal is not home, and I'm having trouble breathing.

I don't want to burden my children by scaring the crap out of them if I start to turn blue.

I'm starting to realize how many great people I have in my life. Tony since moving from Newark to Middletown has excepted me like family. I go to holiday parties with him and his family. He is an awesome man.

I just don't hope I fall asleep on him again. I wanna enjoy my pampering.
- Christian

Location:E Cochran St,Middletown,United States